You have had losses upon losses. The isolation must be so difficult. This has not the comfort of communal, but it sounds like it might be helpful to do an observance yourself. In a quiet place, with a candle, with a poem or a reading you do, planting something, or making a oollage, a quilt, xomething that connects you to your lost child as you wait for women to join you. with one in five pregnancies ending in miscarriage, the relative silence tells you how hard it is.

Blessings on you and your lost children