Mary — I am so glad that my writing gives you insight into your son’s suffering. I feel, sometimes, that one of the few gifts of my struggles, is that when I’ve been released from the dark side one more time, I grow better able to translate the experience to others. Especially with suicide. Very few people get it right. They think they know and they are kind or scolding, but they have no idea of the magnet strength of it. Having walked a lot of the same road as your son, but not going as far, I learn that I don’t know anything but the rough contours of another sufferer’s experience. And that humility is a gift given to me, so that maybeI can be open to the language that might fill it in a little
I am hoping that you are doing as well as it’s possible to be right now.
Martha